Seeking Peace.

Now that the letters are out and the decision has been made, the nerves are setting in.

I'm terrified. I'm terrified about receiving the financial means to go, about the trip itself, about the internship, about the people I am going to meet and serve. None of these things are in my control; they are all in God's. Which everything always is, but usually I at least feel at leas a little more on top of things. Letting every aspect of control go is new to me, and definitely not something that sets my nerves at ease.

But that's the point, isn't it? In our own ways, He calls us out of our comfort zones into a place where we literally cannot do anything without Him. And He has been SO faithful already.

Our Father calls us to live in His peace and for His purpose, not our own. I was listening to a podcast by Louie Giglio this morning, and He was speaking on using our passions for Christ's purpose. This struck a chord for me because this is exactly what I am trying to do, as I pursue my degree in graphic design. I'm not sure where I'll end up yet, but I want to be serving in ministry to some capacity, whether in a secular field or in an office for a Christian organization. Or something else entirely.

Colossians 3:15, 17: "Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the message of Christ dwell among you... And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him." 

With that in mind, I'm repenting of my flesh and letting the Father handle this one. Everything in His perfect timing, and everything according to His plan. If I let go and let Him, He will and CAN do so much more than we expect. So good!